Lavender Balm

Disciples Wish

Colored Pencil

Since childhood, I’ve always questioned my gender, wondering if I was meant to be a man or a woman. As I grew, I began to move away from the labels assigned to me and leaned into a more fluid space, not fully fitting into a particular box. Over time, I learned that being my true self means embracing that uncertainty.

This work reflects a childhood memory of looking into my bathroom mirror and feeling uncomfortable in my body. The image shows me with swords piercing my throat and chest, while foreign hands hold me still and reach for one of the swords. This piece illustrates the struggle between external expectations and the search for my own identity.